Posts Tagged ‘motivation’

Motivation, honestly.

December 5, 2012

Being a full-time artist is a daily struggle of self-motivation and forced creativity.  The overall experience is very fulfilling, of course, but that doesn’t mean it is fun all the time.  Or even most of the time.

Because this is my “work”, it definitely feels like that most of the time.  There are days where I would rather clean the bathroom than start a new painting.  Honestly.

However, there is no feeling that can match the joy of a sudden moment of inspiration – brought on by forcing myself to get in the studio.  Most of the time I have music playing to help the time pass, but sometimes I turn everything completely off…where all I can hear is the scrape, scrape, scrape of my paintbrush on the canvas.  Small moments like this also bring me joy.

Sometimes creative ruts can be another cause of lack of motivation.  Currently I am trying to see how I can blend my mixed media and painting styles, and this was my first painting that resulted from this train of thought.

"Moving", acrylic on canvas, 18'' diameter

“Moving”, acrylic on canvas, 18” diameter

You’ll see I tried to paint some items that I would usually cut out and paste on the canvas to create a mixed media piece.  I’m not sure how successful this painting really is, but there are some elements that I like, and will continue to develop.  *By the way – that house that is floating in the middle of the piece is the house that Patrick and I will be renting when we move back to Nashville. 🙂  I looked it up on Google Earth.  Yup.  House stalker.

The uncertainty of a new direction can sometimes be paralyzing for me.  However, I have to keep reminding myself that nothing is precious (meaning just because I spent a lot of time on a painting doesn’t mean that I can’t change it completely or paint over it if it’s simply a bad painting or not working), and in order to get to those “good” paintings, you have to do some not so good ones on the way.

Then there is the “what is going to sell” motivational dilemma…maybe that is for another post.

Welllllll…time to start that second cup of coffee and head into the studio.  “For God did not give us a spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power,  love, and SELF-DISCIPLINE.” (2 Timothy 1:7 – emphasis mine)  Claiming that today.

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